Making Peace

I can’t believe we are already in March! I decided not to make any New Year’s resolutions in 2019, but I still feel like I haven’t accomplished what I have wanted to. I think it is too easy to get caught up in the excitement of making resolutions, and then get discouraged when we don’t even remember them a month or so later. This year, I decided to do something different. Instead of setting a “resolution”, I chose to decide on a word that I wanted to use to describe my life by the end of this year. The word that I chose is peace. There are many areas in my life in which I hope to find peace, including mentally, physically, and financially. I desperately want to find peace in loving myself and my body.

Last year, I drastically changed the way that I viewed dieting. I started 2018 with a <s>diet</s> “reset” (which shall not be named) that lasted for 30 days. I would go on to complete the “reset”, and attempt to do another at least two more times in 2018, never finding the “willpower” to carry on. My first 30 day “reset” consisted of overwhelming stress, to the point of crying when I realized my chicken sausage had a minuscule amount of added sugar. According to the “reset” rules, I needed to start my 30 days completely over. I couldn’t bring myself to do it, and was luckily talked out of it by my sweet and supportive husband. After the 30 days, I became hyper-aware of the ingredients that were in my food, which is something I still occasionally struggle with today.

A few months later, I would read the life changing book, “Intuitive Eating”, by Elyse Resch and Evelyn Tribole. If you have not read it, please, please, PLEASE do! It has honestly changed the way that I look at life. I am still on a journey though, and do not claim to be perfect (honestly, who is?), but I have started to love my body and the amazing things that it can do. As I search to find peace in my life, with my body and with food, I have found that things are not always as they may seem, and I am better because of it!

♡ Melisse